Closing in on Midnight

It’s almost midnight here on the first day of my fast.  So far it’s a water fast.  I’m still undecided about whether I’ll introduce fresh juice. I don’t have a length goal though I admit I would like to last quite a bit longer than the last water fast I did.  Three weeks sounds great – but I’m not ready to declare that LOL!

I took a long nap – and plan on lots of wonderful long naps in the coming days and weeks.  (Not that that is a big change for me – but when you’re fasting you need to give your body a lot of rest and renewal.)

I wasn’t hungry until just an hour or so ago so it hasn’t been too harsh on me physically – but emotionally, the journey has had a bumpy start.

I mentioned earlier that I was feeling weepy.  I asked my son to run to the PO for me and when he said no I nearly cried about it and called him a name.  It wasn’t a nice name either. Not a proud moment. I went to my room to get dressed to go myself and the thought of putting clothes on was so overwhelming I just sat there feeling sorry for myself.  Sean had a change of heart and went for me.  After I apologized for calling him a name.

The post office is just around the corner by the way.  It’s not like I was having to make a trip accross town.  Silly huh?

I’ve learned from past fasts that I have to give myself a lot of leeway and forgiveness – but I’m giving myself a stern talking to right now.  It’s not acceptable for my son to suffer abuse in the process.

Again, I ask for your prayers and encouragement.  I need it.